Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Reiteration

I'm back here again, wondering again how I wandered in a circle. Is my life really this patterned? Could I cram it into a regular expression and predict my emotional state next month, next fall, next stage of life? I don't want to loop between a finite number of states in neat patterns, tracing and retracing predetermined paths. I want to move forward, grow deeper, stretch skyward, become more than I am now. I don't want to live like a finite automaton, I want to live like a child of God.

3 comments:

sarawr said...

mm.. i can really relate to this one. this comment won't really be helpful or say anything other than that--just that i understand. i'm the same way. it's tough sometimes.

meandering.spark said...

"Feels like I've been waking up, only to fight with the same old stuff" right? Frustrating : ( Praying for you hon.

finney said...

i think you should write down a list of all the things you've learned this year that you did not know last year, and all the major decisions you made this year. we can call these the "FACTS" - then, write down your impression of these facts (sorta like an interpretation). And then apply. See, scripture track was really helpful.