Monday, September 29, 2008


"Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind. . ." (Eph. 4:14)

I am waiting for that day, when waves and winds will not be able to flurry me here and there. I am waiting to understand the restlessness that I cannot pin down as it scurries around my feet, climbs my furniture, tangles my hair, keeps me up at night. I am waiting to become a person who can wait in peace.

Without emotions shredding my thoughts, without emotions flashing across my field of vision, life would be so simple--

Life would be so colorless, without emotion.

I am waiting to find the right palate of colors, vibrant but not clashing, bright but not overwhelming. I am waiting for the right light, so I can begin painting.


legodesi said...

the balance needed in life seems analogous to that needed in worship, faith and love, in the context of emotions. They ought to be driven by truth, enhanced by emotions.

OH I didn't thank you for shutting my fb down. Thank you =]

jfille said...

hey, no problem. :) btw, did you get the email i sent you?

balance is so elusive. it makes me want to believe the greek idea about 4 humors.

legodesi said...

! you sent me an email? was it to my yahoo account at Oh no I'm sorry I didn't get it. either I didn't see it (which is highly unlikely) or you may have sent it to a different email.

Is the greek idea about 4 humors in any way related to the greek idea of four loves?

jfille said...

yeah, i sent it to did internet gnomes eat it?

four humors = blood, phlegm, black bile, yellow bile = four emotional tendencies (supposedly):

legodesi said...

I'm afraid they did. =/
When did you send it?
I forgot to save your email when we talked that night. will you forgive me and share it again?

It seems to make sense. If it were the case, my spleen and liver would be strange bedfellows indeed.